Dang, sometimes i just feel so useless and unwanted.- just like today, during choir. its like- wads the use of having a position in the cca if youre not even needed?! i wasnt even able to help with anything, AT ALL. the other leaders were busy completing their rightful tasks while i was there staring into space. all cus of my inability to play the P-I-A-N-O. how i wish i wasnt so dumb then, to quit piano at grade 3. look wad its done to me. gushh, and how demoralisation affects me. its not like i wanna be over-sensitive or anyth, well fine. i am sensitive, but thats how i am. i cant change myself, can i..? then sunk into depression the whole day. yikes.
i have decided to put aside my diet plans for awhile. haha! im just not persevering enough. cant blame me can you? that icecream was just too tempting! :D i wanna go ruimin's house tmr to bake cookies! yeah baby. whhooopie! but its not confirmed though. its most likely not possible. lol. but wadever, i shall sleep in then!
and its cus.. its:
PROMOTION DAY!
I have no idea wads that about, but im pretty sure its sorta gonna be this procedure where the teachers decide which stream theyre gonna post us into..? well i dont know! according to ruimin it is, but to be sure i'd better re-confirm with lao tmr. but in any case, it prety much doesnt concern me cus i'll probably be gone then!, if you dont know wad that means. heheh.
and AARON'S MOST PROBABLY COMING FOR THE 2007 S'PORE HITS AWARDS! as mentioned by ruimin. lol but she's undeniably always very misleading, so this comment cant really be trusted too much. :D heee.
ive got this irritating zit thingy on my elbow. shrieks it hurts, especially when you lay it on the table while eating or whatsoever and it gets suppressed and everything. its healing though :/, i hope..? haha anyway, it shouldnt bother me too much. cus "BEAUTY IS NOTHING!" ahahaha as quoted by Frankenstein. yes, im still in exam mood. ^ ^
frankly, im havent been really happy these days. sth's going really wrong- i can sense it- but i just cant figure it out. gawsh. The Great Depression of Valencia.
oh right, today, me and ruimin tried to stack my pretty little chicken cards on top of each other to make this tower thang. it was fun, i admit. yeah but frustrating?? the fan was blowing at full speed and our towers toppled a gazillion times ahaha. how great.
im full and bloated to the brim. i need to have KO ONE parts one and two and feilunhai's new album!! aaron's debut solo song's in there! i need it badly...... :'( shopping one day alright guys? then i can get all my stuff at once.. heeeheeee! :D
buaiz,
Duffrawkers