Yeahp, I cried it out. Last night. Really felt and feels so much better. I guess it's human to cry. All these times I've suppressed my emotions, told myself to swallow it and gulp it down. I guess it was time to let it out. Not like it helped my current situation, but I did nevertheless feel that slight bit more comfortable. Thankfully it wasn't a wailing and bawling my eyes out kind of cry, but just a slow, sad tearing which I managed to control after a while - lest I get sore eyes today.

It's been quite a busy morning, but thankfully I managed to get a couple of things done, including cleaning up my room and all. I guess that's the benefit of being alone, and being alone I don't have to worry about being judged or having anyone to consider. It's just me, and me. I guess I'm settled being this way. It's a kind of independence that has its upside. Though the kind of joy one can experience when having someone else to worry for and concern about is different. Right now, I'm alright being this way. No externalities, no distractions. What comes will come. I'll let nature take its course and all higher beings play their cards.

For I am just human; I am mortal.

/On another note, Happy Hari Raya Haji, all!