If there's any other time to feel just completely broken and devastated, it is now...

It's the first time I actually felt such an overwhelming urge at the back of my throat to just cry. I think I will never know why you choose to be so cold and nonchalant towards me and I don't ever see myself trying to find out anymore. All these times of speculation, observation, self-comfort and just senseless consolation have evidently been overthinking and excessive concern on my part. I was wrong, all these while.

Thank you for bringing me the truth today. Everything has become just so plainly clear and direct I don't even need you to say anything anymore. From now on I will harbour no more hope, uncertainty and optimism. Today there is finally closure.

Thank you for being the one to completely numb my heart. Perhaps - for.. ever.